yefeng----------------

I DUN LIKE WORKING HERE @ BEDOK CC.
everyone seems to be so fucking competitive.
i only want to have fun in my life. and i think it sucks now because of my iras attachment.

i'm also always thinking about whter to quit KBOX work or not. i like the job and MOST of the people, but IRAS now make me feel like giving up. I seriously need someone to be there for me for me to depend and rely on. i wonder if i can find the person soon. suddenly, i don't want t be alone by myself. i need mental and physical support, more than anything i need in my life now. Hate my life currently.i only wished to be loved.

I also dunno why am i ranting here. It always seems like i come here just to vent my fustration. HABIT?
i also dun know. but i want a place to let out all my frustrated stuff.
life has its up s and downs. i'm satisfied with my life? i think so, but i just wanna get some love. i want to be loved as if there were no tomorrow. i want to love like there is no tomorrow.
i dun want any other person who comes along and leave everything to me. i just want to find someone who can lead me and love me. i dun want to take the leadership position anymore. i'm sick and tired of all the limelight or stuff. i just wanna get a rest and break from all these stuff and let someone who will decide for me, help me, and stand by me.

TIRED MAX! i want a long long rest. sometimes i wished that i just don't wake up forever. Is there really a reason for me to be here?

pls don't comment on this post. ITS A RANT, doesnt mean anything.

P.S i hate putting on a smile for everyone. When will be the day when someone help put a genuine smile on me