Being in OCS, I deal with loads of firing. Live rounds and blanks. I hate firing, I hate holding to a weapon. I am a pacifist, someone who hates violence. I cannot take killing or doing much harm to others.

I've shed tears over the Connecticut killing. Innocent kids and teachers being shot down.

How I wish to just get into logistics. People may say I chao Keng or whatsoever to wanna get into logistics, but then I'd rather be of support than frontline fighting. I can't stand the blood and gore.